...Mabalik tayo kay Harry

Thursday morning, hinintay ko si Ivy from OT till 9:30 am para makapag breakfast (early lunch) sa Crave Burger @The Fort. Kat decided na sumama dahil lunch nya ng 10:00am.
So ayun, buo na naman ang bekifam.

On the way to Crave Burger, may nakasalubong kaming dog trainer na may hawak na labrador. Guess who?..Its harry th dog trainer (sabi nga ni joy) ahehe

Kumaway si joy pero may isang bata na dumire-diretso sa paglalakad.ahhahaha

Harry: Uy! sabay tawag kay Kat
Kat:      DEDMA.
Joy:      Picture naman kayo!

sarah labas ng camera
ALL: dalliiiiiiii naaa!
Kat:   nagmamadali kami!
ALL: dalliiiiiiii nnaaaa!
Kat:   Lunch ko lang! (habang paikot-ikot na hindi mapakali)
ALL:  daaaaalliiiiii nnnnnnaaaaaaaa!

and so..ayun na nga nagpicture sila at eto ang resulta:

 

 pagkatapos nun, umalis na si harry at dumiretso na kami sa Crave Burger.

Bigla akong natawa kasi naisip ko yung mga nangyari. Alam kong "MAY SOMETHING" sila noon.Pero nakakatawa kasi ang obvious ni Kat na parang apektado sya or something (ps: kat magpaturo ka saken ng POKER FACE).ahahha..

Maya maya hindi na natigil ang usapan about Kat and Harry. I respect her kung hindi man nya sabihin ang details pero bagay naman kayo pwede nang ulitan ulet! hehehe...

Thanks nga pala kay Berto at sa sponsor nyang Super Hot Chicken Wings

busog morning w/ Bekifam

haaahaay!

M.U

ang mga MU para sa mga duwag lang.

ang meaning ng M.U. sa dictionary.

( noun )  mutual understanding:
mutual affection sympathy of each person for the other.


sa tagalog, may pagkakaunawaan ang dalawang tao. Its like a game, pag nahulog ka, talo ka.
Ang unang mainlove..


 LAGOT.


kasi nga.."nagkaunawaan kayo" na hanggang dun lang kayo
bawal ang sobra.

pero ano ba kinaibahan ng M.U sa totoong relasyon?
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wala..

ano ang kulang?
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confirmation.


eh bakit ayaw ng iba na gawin totoo na lang ang lahat?
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Kasi nga duwag sila.

Parang utang sa credit card, ginamit mo na ang balance. Nauna
ang sarap sa hirap..pero ayaw mo bayaran. Ayaw mo panindigan.
Kaya ang MU para sa mga duwag lang!

Photo Me

ang mga babae sobrang daling ma-fall.

which makes sense na sila ang sinusuyo at nililigawan kasi eventually mahuhulog din sila. Hindi katulad ng mga lalaki na kapag ayaw eh ayaw na talaga (hindi ako sure nabalitaan ko lang). Tama ba ko?

Pero ayun lang, may mga taong MAS madaling ma-fall kesa sa iba, meron namang parang bato, pero nagmamatigas lang pala.haha

pero generally mga girls, para tayong photo me.
One hour developing.

ngitian ka lang♥

kindatan ka lang♥

 mapatawa ka lang♥

lutuan ka lang♥

bigyan ka lang ng bulaklak♥

and in my case,

kantahan ka lang.hahah..lol

and mga lalaki hindi sila bangin, kaya wag mahulog ng basta basta.

Kapit muna ng mahigpit at mag isip-isip.

sabi nga ni john lloyd, 

INGAT!

SING FOR ME♥

Its funny cause I easily fall for a guy who could sing.

Yep.Kaya tinatanong nila kung kinantahan daw ba ako ni S kaya ako na ilove sa kanya.

But for the record, he could sing pero not the type na gusto ko.Siguro sa timbre o sa type of music but definitely thats not the reason.

Anyways, we cooked brunch sa house so andito yung mga kapitbahay. N was practicing a song na gagamitin ata nya for some competition. Ito lang ata ulet yun time na narinig ko sya kumanta na sineryoso nya. And well, ang galing nya.

Nakakatawa, kasi habang naghuhugas ako ng plato (yep naghugas ako ng plato) my mind was wandering someplace else.

2009 sa litlit, emoteam building. He was singing and andun ako sa labas doing something, sabi ko na lang, "wow ang galing nya kumanta...ahhh tama na, na-fafall na ko!.hahahha"..thats the day i realized na crush ko sya that eventually led to something more special.lol

It felt the same. But not exactly the same. I hope you know what i mean.

Ganun yata talaga cause sabi ko kailangan pag nag asawa ako dapat may talent kasi wala syang aasahan sakin.hahaha.

he would sing for you until you fall asleep.

he would sing for you on you wedding day.

he would sing for you when youre sad

he would sing for you when you ask him to.

I like guys who could sing.

So, If you like me..

SING FOR ME.

hahhahahha

MESSAGE SENT!

its funny when u get what you wanted the time that you dont want it anymore.

Reminds me of the time na gustong gusto ko ng tamagochi nung bata pa ko. Mahal kasi kaya ayaw ako ibili ni mama, then all of a sudden after like 2 or 3 years, who would have thought na mabibili mo na sya sa tabi tabi for 150 pesos. Funny. Gustong gusto mo dati, tapos nung nakaget over ka na, tanggap mo na hindi ka na magkakaroon non, hindi na sya uso at ayaw mo na noon, yun yung oras na abot kamay mo na sya-MABIBILI SA BANGKETA.

one morning, pauwi ako sa apartment:

conversations:

N:Sarah..cnubukan ko several times na kausapin ka pero i seem not 2 have enough ball 2 do it. inexcusable ginawa ko na wala akong alibi..im a jerk n wala akong alibi..hope u'll forgive me..

una ko naisip, whoa san galing yun? una sa lahat, okay na kami. Naguusap, nagkwekwentuhan, nagtatawanan. Bakit all of sudden may ganun? Umiinom ba to? Lasing? Bakit out of the blue? Antagal ko inisip yun irereply ko dahil the least that I wanted is bumalik kami sa ilangan.

S:San galing yun? Bat out of nowhere? Ok na naman tayo diba?

N: ok naman. Nagppsorry kasi ako sa lahat lately..sa lahat ng shortcomings ko..alam ko walang kaabog abog..baka kasi mamatay na ko bukas okaya sa makalawa..gusto ko lang sabihin, pasensya na txt lang..na sorry..

Naisip ko, taena naman. Antagal ko hinintay yun. Na magsorry ka. Ipaliwanag ang lahat. Ano nangyari? Bakit ganon? Baket? Baket?

higit sa lahat....

BAKIT NGAYON LANG?

Funny.

Ngayon..


Ngayon na the sorry doesnt mean anything anymore. God knows napatawad na kita kahit wala yan. Ngayon na, any explanation wouldnt matter anymore. Sa totoo lang madami pa kong tanong, katulad ng....

....BAKIT?
...ANONG NANGYARI?

but i guess, kahit tapos na, hindi ko pa din kaya itanong. Kasi baka hindi ko magustuhan ang sagot. I guess pagdating sa mga ganyang bagay, hindi ako kasing tapang ng inaakala ko.

nag iisip ako ngayon, nang irereply ko:

A. OK lang yun, wag mo na isipin. Napatawad na naman kita e, noon pa.
B.  Tapos na yun, ok na
C.  Napatawad na kita noon pa, pero can i ask you something? ano ba talaga nangyari?
D. None of the above. DEDMA.

Sabi ni boss sa taas ng ulo ko, "Piliin mo ang letter A. Kaswal. Walang hassle pagkatapos.Hindi ka magmumukhang apektado sa mga nangyari noon at cool na cool pa din ang dating mo"

Sabi naman ng isa pang boss sa dibdib ko, "Piliin mo ang letter C. Para sa ikatatahimik mo, itanong mo na. Its now or never. Tanong lang naman e, para malaman mo na ang sagot at walang maiwang tanong dyan sa puso mo. Dapat handa ka sa anumang sagot na pwede nyang sabihin sayo. Gusto mo yun totoo diba?"

.....nag iisip pa din ako..

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MESSAGE SENT.

HISTORY EXAMS.repost.

MATCHING TYPE.PASS YOUR PAPERS! repost.wala pala dito sa blog ko e.hehe

who's your the one who got away?

halos mga kalokohan at kulitan ang mga last posts ko. Eto seryoso ulit. Topic sa comm, WHO'S YOUR THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY?

then..biglang napunta sa lovelife.(yehee usapang love nanaman!)

..and then i realized...

kadamihan (hindi man lahat) sa doterz eh single and ready to mingle. Madami ang may isang minamahal na hindi naging successful at looking for someone (or at least waiting) for the perfect guy.

mabuti naman silang tao at maalaga with special mention kay beruth and rolet na talaga naman super kung mag asikaso, at mabait. Maganda! oha oha..pero its still a mystery bat nga ba kadamihan sa taong to eh single or "unmarried"?

ang asim ng nanay ko.oha

robyn=)

They loved.....and lost. Well galing sa third party perspective, sayang. Lost talaga ng guy yun cause these girls are amazing.

well...pero tama bang maghintay na lang?..<para kay ate chee>

che

sabi sa amnesia girl, ANG TRUE LOVE AY PARA SA MATATAPANG LANG.

matatapang sila pero sadly hindi naman kasing tapang nila ang mga guys sa buhay nila.

to robyn:
big days are coming frend! im so happy for you. Gusto kong maging masaya ka basta wag kalimutang ako ang Maid of Honor.hahahaha love you=)

to beruth:
i love you mudrakels..kahit na mag 30 ka na, i know darating pa din yan, alam ko minsan nag woworry ka.. just wait and see.

to ate chee:
ikaw ang pinakabata sa kanila but surprisingly ikaw pa ang nagsabing maghihintay ka na lang. Para sakin, go out and meet new people!..

Ipagdadasal ko kay Bro na sana magka lovelife na kayo kasi magiging mabuti kayong totoong mga nanay sa totoong buhay.Love you guys=)

director's cut

dear direk,

pinatalsik ko na sa set yung supporting
actor na kinuha mo, ayoko sa kanya.


Akala ko ba si lead actor na talaga ang
makakapareha ko sa pelikula? eh bakit
kailangan mamatay sya tapos mabuhay
ulit? ang chaka naman ng istorya baka
hindi na kapani paniwala. Buhayin mo
na ulit si lead actor para naman gumanda
na ang istorya ng pelikula. Alam mo na,
yun ang gusto ng mga fans e.







Tsaka ang daya ha. Hindi ko nakita ang katapusan
ng script ng pelikula, para daw surprise sabi ng road
manager ko. Sino ba talaga ang totoong lead actor?
Si lead actor na ba ang totoong lead actor?


Nakakaloka!


Pero alam mo, sabi ko naman kasi sayo na sya
na lang.


Tignan mo magiging box office to promise!

awkward

AWKWARD.def.
not easy to handle or deal with; requiring great skill, ingenuity or care.




Gosh.

nakakatawa. nanginginig ako, hindi ko naman ma-control.yun lang.hehe

ang isda.bow

inaaliw ang sarili sa mga maling isda

may mga isda sa aquarium. Langoy ng langoy, inaaliw nila ko dahil mabait sila, hindi matakaw at hindi tumatakas.

Pero wala sa aquarium ang paborito kong isda.

Nasa dagat. Ayaw na nya kasi sa aquarium ko, gusto nya maging malaya. Lumangoy kasama ng ibang isda, tsaka ng nanay at tatay nyang isda.

Pero nakakamiss din ang isdang yun paminsan minsan.



he said he's leaving, i accepted that.

before he left, everything was okay. He made me feel things will be alright. He'll visit, he'll call.
I thought everything's going to be okay. Things are not going to be easy, i knew that. But I was willing to
make the sacrifices just to make it work.


and then, just a month after he left he says he doesn't want to make the relationship deeper because things will be just
hard for the both of us. How selfish is that?

my heart yells: OUCH!

so what does that mean?
what he feels for me and the times that we shared together are all LIES.

"the truth didn't hurt, the lies did"

And whats worse, he didn't even let me know that he's leaving now, FOR GOOD. He left me hanging, waiting.



Waiting......



for.......




nothing.....






and he said he did not guarantee anything? well guess what? that's bs.




why did you have to kill me? I can die on my own.

My heart Died Today

my heart died today, april 02,2009.

Things are just starting to get really special. But then, life wouldn't just let me be happy.
First off, he said he's about to resign. I didn't want to talk about it. He was hired in a company in Pampanga. What? All along I thought he's going to stay here. But there's still hope deep inside that he'll change his mind. Then reality sets in.

s: di ko alam sasabihin ko, ano ba ko sayo?
 
n: ur more than a friend choy
 
s: lagi ako inaasar ni rolet kung bakit wala akong bf, kasi daw ung mga boys ko hanggang    introduction lang, walang ginagawa.naiinis ako sa kanya pag ganun di na lang ako nagsasalita..
   I like you, in case you havent noticed.pro alam ko naman yung tungkol sa family mo at naiintidihan    ko din na sila ung priority mo. I realized that i dont need a rel just to prove that what i feel is       real. pero ang gulo lang..tas aalis ka..xempre di madali sakin un..
 
n: alam ko naman un at nalulungkot din ako..nahihiya na
    DI KITA MAPANINDIGAN SARAH...
 
s:  ayoko maawa sa sarili ko pero un ung nararamdaman ko, kung yun ung choice na pinili mo wala naman akong magagawa don eh..
 
n:  uh dont have to feel that way..please dont..im sorry choy..;c
 
n:  choy sorry..


di kita mapanindigan..the words keep playing on my mind over and over..then tears fell from my eyes. I don't want to think or feel anything, make me numb.

Valentine Pressure

Do I have a date?  But the question for me is, “should I really have to have one?” People are expecting everyone to go out with someone special, go on a date, receive roses or flowers or chocolates. Come to think of it, that’s the very commercialized image of this day. We are feeling pressured to receive or give something because that’s what they want us to feel. So that marketer’s could get something from your paycheck.  Im a marketing graduate, I should know.

But what’s funny is that deep inside we are all feeling pressured, specially the single ones. Haha

Rolette said: “ sa dinami-dami ng stalker mo, wala man lang nag-ask sayo ng date? Haha”

Then it got me thinking, should I go out on Saturday? Boylet1 keeps on asking me for a date even after three times of rejection. I don’t want to go out with him just for the sake of having a date on valentines day. What about ___ from school? He said he likes me maybe he’d ask me. But still, the idea of it doesn’t feel right.

From the Internet, here’s the meaning of valentines day:

noun. Valentines day- a day for the exchange of tokens of affection

Going back to Rolette’s question, I don’t give a damn if those stalkers (whatever you want to call them) don’t ask me for a date. I don’t want them to, because I have a problem letting other people down. If ever, I only want to go out with (insert name here). Haha.. Yikes. 

what made me think that im the priority and not just an option? Stupid me.

there’s nothing more painful than being hurt for the same exact reason, and what’s worse is that deep inside I know that Im ready to face the same pain over and over just to be with him.

He said he likes me. But I guess that’s not enough. He makes me feel special but were just friends. M.U? I dont know, and it sucks.BIGTIME.

But the hell with it, he makes me happy and I thought that’s enough. Well that’s what I thought.  Being with him is like standing in the rain, it feels good but deep inside,you know its going to make you sick. I was happy just being with him, but in this type of situation, I was never prepared to the fact that one day he could come up to me and say that he has another girl and of course, who am i to blame him if im just a friend, right?…
He broke up with his ex. With the f**** ex. He said that they are trying to fix things but he realized that It’ll never gonna work out. Shocking. I never thought he’s still talking with the ex. Much more, trying to build a broken relationship. Well, I should be happy, thrilled and full of joy.  

The important thing is IT DIDNT WORK OUT. 
But that’s not the case. I felt like a toy that was set aside when the kid found the long lost barbie doll.

I felt stupid, I felt betrayed. So all this time, when I was dealing with my feelings for him and thinking that its okay to be hurt just to be with him, he was out there exchaging hugs and sweet kisses with the long lost ex. When I was in my bed thinking of the times that we spent together, he was out there with another girl. Stupid me.

What made me think that he feels something for me? What made me think that he’ll stay? What made me think that Im the priority and not just the option?

I said im done. I said Im through. Its about time to let go of the things that hurt me even if they make me happy. I dont want the time to come that all the happiness was gone and all I could feel is the pain. I’ll let him go.

But deep inside I know I cant. What should I do?…Make me dumb, right now.

Its all about playing safe

were friends and yup, that’s basically it. Some actually think that we have “something” Some might say that we have a mutual understanding. But the answer? None of those. Its just that he’s the kind of person that you can easily talk to and very easy to please by the way. Thats the reason why we became this close. Somebody told me that its very hard to tell what I think or feel. That’s true. In fact, I can conceal my emotions without even trying.  So, what do I think? Here let me tell you. So first off, he makes me feel special. ( Not all the time though) Im not quite sure of what he thinks about me either. Sometimes I feel that he acts like a boyfriend, I dont know. Yes, he can be sweet sometimes, but he is like that to everybody. Im confused. On my end, he is special to me. Its hard to explain but let me try okay? Its not that I love him, like has a big difference with love. And I do get jealous too, when he starts to talk about other girls. (yikes) He’s special in a way that he’s in the middle of a friend and a special someone. Just in the middle. Maybe because im holding back and he’s holding back. I have my reasons he has his reasons. talk about playing safe huh? People are actually wishing, and hoping for us to be together. But I dont know. I havent thought about it. Dont they think that It’ll just make things complicated? And Im not really sure if we have something to start over with.    Why is he like that? Here’s my very own conclusions. 1. Maybe he’s just like that because he misses the feeling of having “someone” and having me around reminds him of that feeling. He misses the feeling but he really doesnt want to be committed. He has a point. This is a win-win situation for him. Iam there when he needs me but he can stop whenever he wants to. No promises, no hassles, easy way out.  Which is I find very unfair. First of all, why start something you have no intentions of finishing? Why would you let someone fall for you if you only want friendship? Sounds selfish? you decide for yourself. 2. Or maybe, he simply likes me.  So the bottomline is, do I want us to be together?  Im curious. What would it feel like? But does being curious mean that I do?…